Oh this boy is such a man. So rugged and rough, with calloused hands and scruff accenting his jaw line. So strong and safe and yes. Yes.
I love falling asleep naked. I love waking up naked. I love how perfectly our bodies fit together when we cuddle. I love his beautiful, intense blue-green eyes. I love the blonde hair that makes his scruff shimmer in the sun.
I love the way he takes care of me. I love the way he thinks of me. I love making him proud. I love pleasing him. I love pleasuring him. I love the way he worries about me. I love the way he touches me. I love running my hands all over his muscle. I love his laugh. I love the way he’s always so amazed and fascinated by me.
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It’s scary, the way you’re making me admit how much I feel for you. I feel so much for you. I’m terrified of it. I’m terrified of how much I missed you, how easily tears came pouring down when I heard your voice and knew I could stop worrying about you. I’m terrified at how easily you see through my barriers and false fronts and strength. How did you know? So easily. How did you know that I feel so strong for you? How can you see how vulnerable I really am?
The way you tell me you’re starting to think about me instead of her, even though you still love her. The way you try so hard to make it better. The way you know something’s wrong even if I tell you it’s ok. I don’t know if I would give it all up for you. I don’t know. It’s scary. Because I might. I might want to really call you mine. And that’s too much for me to handle. You could be my anchor, you could be my safe harbor from everything and that scares me.
ahhh… loving a man who loves another woman. always a painful lunge.
xx
Yeah, he just broke up with his ex a few months ago. But I things are going well for us.
well, that’s a completely different story then
glad to hear that hapiness has found you at last (:
xx
Thank you. I just really want to be official already…but I just need to be patient.