Look I’m sorry. I don’t know how to be strong anymore. I am tired. Exhausted. I went to bed feeling like shit mentally and woke up still feeling like it with a big dose of physical sickness added in.
I know I meant something to you. And I know you’re denying it because you’re confused and etc. but I’m too tired to be understanding right now. Right now I just think you’re a fucking douche for hurting me, for renouncing everything your actions proclaimed, and I still fucking love you more than I can say.
I need you. And god I know you need me. What the fuck. In a good world that would be enough. But for some reason it’s not and I don’t know why.
I’m tired of pretending I’m ok alone. Because I’m not. I need you here. I want to take care of you. I want our love bright and beautiful and out in the open. I want to love you so hard I think I might burst from it.
God someone help me. I need help.
